Acceptance

When it storms, the rain comes down hard.....it thunders, lightens even, tree branches break, sometimes even trees fall, large ones too. Then the storm starts to calm down, it continue to rain, but then it slows down, then it stops. The sun comes out, trees get greener, birds sing a new song, and your path seem a little clearer.


After you go through the hurt, the pain, the anger, and even the rage, you start to look at life for what it is; A Bowl of Experiences. If I hadn't gone through what I went through, would I still be the person I am today? If I hadn't experienced what I experienced, would I have learned that lesson anyway.

Trails come and trails may go, they enter into our lives to make us stronger. Where they lead us no one knows, but the path it takes us down leads us to this glorious crown.

There will always be bumps in the road called life. These bumps are a part of the process. I was once told to change the things I can change accept the things I can't and have the wisdom to know the difference. We can't change our past, so why dwell on it. We can't change other people, how they feel about us, what they say about us. Really it's none of our business anyway what they say, think, or how they feel. It's their feelings, they own that not us!

All we really have control over is our behavior, what we add to our relationships, and what we think, feel and say about others.

I've learned to accept my past, not make excuses for it. I wasn't a bad person, but my behavior was bad, and even though I may have been justified then, I am not now if I continue to behave that way. I have learned to accept who I was and who I am now.

Learn to be in the moment, and let go.

Life

LIfe isn't about waiting for the storm to pass....
It's about learning how to dance in the rain!

Pain

When you get a paper cut....it hurts, but you can't see the cut. Sometimes God turns our life upside down so we can live it right side up. During the upside down times, we experience this thing called pain. Pain is weird, it is the strongest point of emotion that creeps up on you, that you never see coming.

When I was a kid I was hurt, but that's not what turned me cold and bitter. It was the pain I felt. The pain creeped up on me slowly, and as time went on, it got stronger and stronger. The stronger it got the more I acted out. The more I acted out, the stronger I felt the pain....and then one day it stopped! It had come to a halt. I didn't know if I was happy or sad, anger, or mad. All I knew was I had to stand still.....and so I did.

Pain, had defind who I was, where I was going, and who I would let in. Pain had been my friend, and now I had to say goodbye to pain.



My Name unknown

My name unknown
I sit alone watching the dark clouds go by
I watch and watch thinking about the reason why?

Why he left, why he stayed, why things ended this way....but
my name unknown

My name unknown
I sit and soone
looking for the one who owns,
owns my heart, and owns my soul
own the things that I know.....
The one who will be there, the one who will care,
the one who laughs and the one who shares.
The one who will sit and chat with no lies
But my name, Unknown

My name unknown
I guess you know
I want so many things that are near and dear
close to my heart as you can see, that's where I want you to be.....

until then

MY NAME-UNKNOWN!

Nikki T.