Honesty

The hardest thing do, is to stand in front of a mirror, naked, and like what you see!

The scariest thing to do, is to close your eyes and and fly blind.

Everyone remembers the day after, I remember the day before. I went to church that morning so excited because I was getting baptized. I had on a white robe, no shoes and a towel. I was told that when I entered into the water, the old person would stay there and the new one would emerge. They had won me over, I couldn't wait! By noon it was done, and by 1 we were on our way back home for Sunday dinner. Everyone was so happy for me, I was excited and I felt good about myself. I went to bed that night, with a smile on my face. I felt so close to God. So close I swore he kissed me that night. When I got up the next morning I looked for the prettiest skirt I had. I put it on with my best initial sweater; it was so cute it was cream with blue writing "NDT" with the T in the middle being the largest. I looked like the perfect Catholic school girl, even though by now I was in public school. I went to school, very different that day. I smiled all day, sat perfectly in my chair, listen to my instruction, and walked to my sitter's house with my friends. Life was perfect until the day after. It was the day after that changed my life forever. It was the day after that made me so mad at God, but more importantly, it was the day after that we split into two.
I question that day. I had always asked myself why, even though, no matter how bad it was, I didn't know didn't know if it change my life for good or for bad......all I know....it changed me!

insert from the upcoming book......
Nelson Mandela once quoted:
'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so
that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other
people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.'

Writing has been a life long dream of mine. I am birthing this baby!