Doubt

I do not trust you because I doubt you know best, have my best interest at heart, or know what you are doing. I fear what I don't know, so I doubt you again. The pain in my heart is too strong so I, now have a hard time believing you, I doubt you love me.........

and the list goes on.

Doubt is formed from fear, and fear is formed from distrust. Distrust becomes the distant cousin on the opposite side of honesty, faith, and love.

"I thought God left me, I didn't believe he loved me anymore. How could he had let this happen to me? He told me that if I put my trust in him, he would keep me, but instead he let him hurt me! NOW I hate life, I HATE me, I HATE the pain that's in my heart, the way I feel, the sadness, the darkness, I doubt I will ever get out of here."
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Fairytales

He said it was going to last forever,
forever and a day,
that's what he said.
If I only had listen to him I would be happy today.
Only if I hadn't cried I would be saved.
Only if I had payed more attention to the outside world
only then, wouldn't I have still laid?

I regret the feelings inside
I regret the times I side
I regret the ignorance that I had inside the pain it lead if I hadn't died.....

But now I know what I know too late....

He said it was going to last forever,
forever and a day-that's what he said!

but it was nothing but a fairytale
nothing but a dream

until tomorrow until we meet again
until;

it will still be nothing but a fairytale!

by Nikki T.